abandon abandonment
[ THE EMPTY HOUSE ]
The house was empty
cupboards bare
The only sound came from the upstairs bedroom
The moaning
The groaning
That would never be heard by anyone except them
The silent sounds of a young girl
Offering her love to any soul who would take it
I the empty house she had grown lonesome
For there was nobody there
Not a picture to give the illusion of family
Or a friend
Or even a caring face
Even the fridge was bare
No food to nourish the deep-rooted hinger
The sounds of her growling stomach there was nobody to hear.
The growls of pain that symbolized the need for the spirit to be fed
Thinly noise that filled her ears was the sound of this boy
The moaning and groaning of a prosperous player
Who also understood what it felt like to be solo
For he was always in the company of her
Nobody
She offered no comfort
There was no love to give
Just an empty house to fuck in
FOSTER CARE ~ BEING TAKEN CARE OF IN BETWEEN HOMES
[ CHILDREN RAISING CHILDREN ]
Self-help books clutter the shelves
Middle aged women trying to heal themselves
Distraught over their empty lives
Causing them to be insufficient wives
Children suffering from the absent love of parents they despise
Looking at their lives and seeing the lies
Craving affection they know will never be realized
The look in their eyes is nothing but sad
The miss their daddy, he comes home rarely
A role in family life, he has just barely
The office is comforting, he drowns himself in work
But in the big house they call him a jerk
This does nothing to serve the ego
He’s running from a wound that can’t be ignored
Praying his wife will one day grow barren and bored
Tired of trying to improve herself
When all that he cares about is if she looks top shelf
Strong enough to clean and cook his dinners
She questions which of the two are the ideal sinners
It’s her because she never showed she cared
Knowing her children she didn’t dare
Or him, the big shot, who works all day
Comes home simply to hit the hay
Not into bed to stroke his wife
Or ask his kids about their loveless life
So in a household where parents are both lost and confused
The children remain silent victims, far from amused
They wonder what it’ll take to bring them all together
Without being answered by a worthless whatever
[ PATIENTLY WAITING ]
Hold my hand and walk with me
I am scared
Dry me tears and stroke my head when I lay it on your shoulder
When I lie beside, place your hand one more
The strong protecting the weak
When I shiver in the coldness of the harsh winter night, envelope me the warmth of your soul
Whisper in my ear as I lay beside you, like a frail girl
Caress my body as I reveal it to you, unmasked, in the flesh
The purity of freshly fallen snow, untouched and unharmed by the toxicity of mankind
You could make me your sex toy and trophy girl, but instead I opt for you to ease my fear
You know it is there, but cannot shine through until I unmask the demons that shadow it
You are waiting for the greatness hidden beneath the depths of my soul to unveil itself
But while you wait for me to evolve, please just hold my hand and walk with me
I am scared~
[ THE FINAL PLEA OF A CHEATER ]
In the end we went out ways
You took the art and the car
Moved your spirit far and away
I remember the moment, ever so clearly
Your back approaching the door
As you set out to accomplish your final chore
I longed to tell you I missed you as you stood by the door.
I chose to say nothing, unspoken I remained
I feared my word would provoke tears
Revealing only my greatest fears
So I turned away, torn and pained
You showed no remorse, as you strutted away tall
Our child tightly in your comforting grip
Off and away, venturing on your finally awaited trip.
Leaving me to mourn, not even saying you’d call
So now here I am, all alone
To find another like you I must
not just unrequited lust
But this time I must show I’m worthy of trust
And remember the importance of a phone
For all those nights I left you waiting
Never calling to hear your voice
To this day I question the stupidity of my choice
But then I was too busy dating
I am sorry I failed, I am sorry I lied
These words mean nothing anymore
As I stand here alone on the hallway floor
Emotions I can;t even begin to hide
If you ever return, I’ll change my ways
Giving you all I have to offer
Whispering in your ear just a little softer
For I’ll always remember the better days
Those times are now finished and passed
Memories of you are all i have left to ponder
In search of another soul like you I must wander
But in this search I may not last
I know now that you were everything, even in this saddened haze
As I watched you car drive away
I was speechless, no words left to say
Except remember the better days
Nobody will ever be you. Nothing will ever be us.
